December 22, 2011

False Labor

So.... I keep having signs of labor that make me think I'm in labor, but yet I'm not. I have now had 4 nights where I've been woken in the middle of the night with contractions (which is how my labor started with both Kayla and Isaac, btw). The contractions aren't terribly strong or painful, but they are also not just Braxton-Hicks either. They appear to be real contractions, radiating top to bottom, front to back. But I convince myself that they aren't strong yet, so I should go back to sleep and get as much rest as possible because I'll need it for what is to come. It also gets me emotionally and mentally prepared for labor. I feel the wheels setting into motion and know how things will start to progress and I get myself prepared for that. Then when I get up in the morning.... NOTHING. No contractions, no pain, no labor, exhaustion. I am very thankful that my mom has been in town the last week because I'm then able to rest if I need/want to rest, and she is here helping out with the kids. But it is so frustrating to continually have these false signs.

It is also making me doubt my ability to know and trust myself and my feelings. I really, truly think I'm in labor when this happens. So, am I going to know when I really, truly am in labor? With Isaac, I had contractions on and off all day, but couldn't tell if they were real or not. They weren't terribly painful and they weren't consistent. I didn't know I was for sure in labor until 4pm and he was born at 6:08. Not a lot of time. They say subsequent children can come faster than previous ones. Of course that is not always the case... but what if it is? By the time I know I'm for sure in labor I may have less than 2 hours. Did I mention we live 35 mins from the hospital, and that is if there isn't traffic? Heaven forbid it happen during rush hour! I feel pressured to know exactly when I am in labor so we can get in the car and get to the hospital ASAP. I do not want to have this baby in the car, in an ambulance or at the fire station (like David's boss' 3rd child!). I do not want to have to drive so fast that we are pulled over on our way (as Kayla's preschool teacher was during labor!). So, all of these episodes of false labor are really throwing me for a loop. Will I know when it's real? I am afraid that I won't know... or at least that I won't know until it's too late!

I've had people ask me if I plan to get an epidural with this baby. I had one with Kayla, but did not for Isaac. I don't know how to answer that one. Especially since I'm not even sure if I will make it to the hospital in time! So, I guess the answer is, we'll see. With Kayla I was hoping not to have one. But, a long labor, slow dilation and back labor changed my mind and I got one and am glad I did. When I got to the hospital with Isaac I was begging for one, but there wasn't time. And of course, he was born shortly thereafter and I was really glad that I didn't get one with him. I'd been able to manage the pain until the very end (really just the pushing stage was unmanageable, at which point I would not say I was coping well.... however, that's also the worst part, and also the last part, so...). So, I guess we'll see. This unknown is also a bit scary for me!

I am starting to get really excited and really anxious to meet this little one. My love for her is growing daily and I know that my heart will explode the moment she is born, and I just can't wait for that!

December 17, 2011

Preschool Christmas Party!

Kayla's preschool did a Christmas production and it was very cute! Her class dressed up like angels! Each class memorized scripture and recited it. Kayla was one if the kids that knew it so well that she got to hold the mic! Then they also sang some songs. It was pretty adorable. Afterwards we had a Christmas party in their classroom. I really love her preschool and enjoyed seeing Kayla interact with others!





December 13, 2011

My Bags are Packed and I'm Ready to Go!

Less than 2 weeks til my due date now. Crazy! I am pretty much ready for this little girl to make her entrance. I have my bag for the hospital packed. I've purchased a good amount of 0-3 month warm clothes (since all of Kayla's stuff is summer clothing) and washed it and put it in her dresser. I've washed the seats to her swing, bouncy chair, play mat, bassinette sheets. We bought her car seat (finally!). We've bought all of our Christmas presents and have wrapped nearly all of them as well! The only thing we aren't finalized on yet is her name. I ran a few ideas by Kayla of our top choices, and she said she liked them. Then she asked if we could name her Rapunzel instead. We'll have to think about that one! :)

At preschool the other day I had 3 separate people stop to comment about how I must be almost there, how I look like I'm ready to go any minute, how they keep thinking one day they won't see me there because I'm having the baby! I can totally relate to all of those comments, and they were all said really nicely and respectfully (not like, wow, you are huge, you must be due any day.... which I also feel like would be an accurate thing to say, just not too tactful).... but it is still really hard for me to hear all the comments. I WANT to be all done. I WANT to have this baby. I WANT to not be dropping Kayla off but be in the hospital instead. I remember when I was pregnant with Kayla I didn't even want to go outside the last week or two because I just didn't want to run into anyone who would inevitably say, "no baby yet, huh?!" I don't know why that's so hard for me to accept. This time I think it's hard because it would not be my first choice to have this baby on Christmas Day. And I feel like every day I'm still pregnant is one day closer to Christmas, and increasing my chances of having her on that day. I really had wanted her birthday to be as far away from Christmas as possible... and each day I'm still pregnant I am not getting that wish. Also, my mom is coming in town tomorrow, and of course it would be most convenient to have her when she is in town (then no matter what time of day or night I start labor, I don't have to worry about finding someone to watch the kids... don't have to worry my MIL won't make it over here fast enough and I'll end up delivering the baby on the side of the road, or other silly fears in my head!). But my mom is here for nearly a month. It would be SO NICE if this baby came shortly, so she was able to help during the transition period from 2-3 kids. If she comes a week late, or heaven forbid more than that, my mom won't be here long to help with the transition. And while I'll appreciate the help while I'm still pregnant, I'd really much rather the help after giving birth.

So.... this is always the tough part for me. I like planning and being in charge and hate the unknown. In my heart I guess I feel like she is going to come on Christmas Day, in light of how this pregnancy arose... and I'm trying to mentally prepare myself for that reality. I mean, there really isn't much I can say or do to change anything. She will come when she is good and ready to come, and the only people that have influence over that are her and God, so I just need to trust that His plan is better than whatever plan I would have, and trust that He will provide me with the strength and patience needed to deal with whatever comes.

Now.... if only we had a name! :)


November 28, 2011

Thanksgiving 2011

This year Thanksgiving was so different than how it typically is! Usually we host Thanksgiving at our house and both sides of our family drive out to see us. We alternate each year who stays at our house while the others stay at a hotel. This year (obviously) the Taylor's did not have to drive to see us! My grandparents also typically come and join us, but this year for health reasons they were not able to come. But my parents made the drive and stayed with us. And also, it is typically a really busy time for us, since everyone is in town and we want to see them all as much as possible. That results in a house full of people for several days straight! Since we now live near the Taylor's and are able to see them more frequently, we did not need to cram as much as possible into the weekend. We have loved the tradition of hosting, and are glad to continue it down here! While we've also enjoyed those several days where everyone is together, it was nice to be a bit less busy/stressful for us this year, especially since I am pregnant! We still hosted Thanksgiving at our house and had appetizers and later dinner at our house. Then on Friday the guys went golfing and then later we had dinner at the Taylor's. It was a fun new tradition! I also started a new tradition - a Thankfulness Tree. I made a leaf for each person and asked them to reflect on what they are thankful for and to write it down. We shared what we wrote at dessert time and then hung them on the tree. I am saving them, so each year we can look back to see what we had in pervious years!

Here are some pictures!

November 21, 2011

35 and 35

Today I am 35 weeks pregnant and have just 35 days until my due date! On one hand, this pregnancy has totally flown by. I can't believe I'm in the last trimester, nearly the last month. In some ways I feel totally unprepared! We don't even have a car seat yet (our previous infant car seat expired in 2010 and we chose not to bring it with us to NC)!!! I'm too busy and too tired to mentally prepare for what my life is going to look like with 3 little ones. I haven't mentally prepared for what I'll do with the 2 when I'm nursing the baby. I haven't figured out how I'm going to get out of the house by 8:40 with everyone fed, dressed, diapers changed, etc to take Kayla to preschool. Already mealtimes are chaotic at our house, trying to get food on the table for everyone (especially for Isaac who seemingly doesn't eat anything). And I remember mealtimes being so tough when you have a little one who needs to be held, or nursed, or bounced.... I can't imagine what it's going to be like when you put those 2 together!!

At the same time, I am pretty much ALL DONE being pregnant. This pregnancy has been really hard for me emotionally. I know that this baby is going to be an amazing part of our family and I'm excited that I've been blessed with 3 little ones. But I feel totally out of my comfort zone. This is not how I would have planned my family (in terms of how close together they will be), and that loss of control has been much more difficult than I would have thought. I really hate when people tell me how busy I'm going to be. You think? I am already overwhelmed with my life in its current state, and I realize that it's only going to get busier. But I don't really need people to tell me this. I remember when I was pregnant with Isaac people told me the same thing, and it annoyed me then too. I knew I would be busy, but I'd mentally prepared for it and felt ready to take on that challenge. This time it just frustrates me and makes me sad... because I kind of agree with them and I don't see how it will all work out, and that's a scary thought for me. I know that God will provide me with the energy and love and patience I will need, I just don't see exactly how everything will work out.

I'm also physically ALL DONE with this pregnancy. I've been very uncomfortable during many stages of this pregnancy. I've been feeling sick many nights again for the last 2 months (not throwing up, just feeling unsettled in my belly). And she is getting bigger and bigger and therefore so am I. And I'm feeling the effects of carrying around extra weight (my knees and hips are starting to get a bit sore). And it's getting harder to breathe as she is pushing on my lungs. It's really hard to get up and down from sitting to standing. It's hard to carry Isaac around. It's just hard. And the last several days she's been really pushing on me and I'm ready to not be pregnant anymore. Oh - and I go to the bathroom all the time. It's ridiculous!

I am totally conflicted about labor too! Part of me is concerned that we won't make it in time to the hospital, since Isaac came so fast. Another part of me is afraid that I'll go too early and be sent home! I'm anxious about the whole thing. I am SOOO not looking forward to the pain aspect of labor. My back labor with Kayla (pre-epidural) was so very painful and I don't want to go through that again. My pain with Isaac was manageable until the end of transition and the pushing stage, at which point I just wanted to give up. And I REALLY don't want to go through that again. But do I really want to get an epidural? Will I even have time to get one if I decide I want one? Would I really choose to go through the pain of labor again without drugs? I don't know! I guess I'll have to see how this labor unfolds, but again, that is so hard for me to now know (as a planner)!

I am starting to enter the nesting stage. We just bought an outfit for her to come home in and have charged the battery to the camera. I want to get out all of the clothes I have and get them washed and folded and put away (somewhere!). I want to buy the car seat and be done with it. There are a few other misc. things I need to buy. I want to wash the sheets for her bassinette, wash the fabrics to her swing, bouncy seat, etc. I want to feel ready for her to come any day, because honestly, part of me wants her to come any day! And the other part of me is scared to death of her coming any day!! :)


October 31, 2011

Halloween 2011

We had a great time celebtrating Halloween this year. Earlier in the month we went and picked out pumpkins. The weekend before Halloween David carved them. Kayla "helped". Isaac did NOT like the insides of the pumpkins, nor does Kayla. But they enjoyed watching him decorate them!



Our church hosted a Halloween/fall outdoor party. There were tons of inflatables, tons of fun, and we had tons of fun!



This year Kayla requested to be an elephant for Halloween. Mom Taylor made her this adorable costume! Isaac was a panda bear, which is a costume she had made for Kayla when she was that age/size. Sadly, it was raining while we were trick-or-treating, so we didn't make it all that far. But the kids enjoyed dressing up and ringing some doorbells, and then came home and enjoyed eating their candy and handing candy out to the kids who stopped by!


October 20, 2011

Our 1st NC State Fair

The State Fair is a big deal around here and we were excited to check it out. There was a lot to see and do and we all had a great time. We pre-bought ride tickets at a discount, next year we will need to buy even more! Both kids enjoyed riding a few rides. Of course there is all sorts of yummy food, which we enjoyed trying! The highlight for the kids was the petting zoo. They were LOVING feeding the animals and petting them! So cute! We went in the middle of October and it was nearly 80! Such a change from typical October weather for us!! This was also the first time that we used our new backpack carrier and Isaac LOVED it. He was able to see everything and we were able to keep him contained. He spent nearly the whole day up there (which was about 5 hours) and he really enjoyed himself! What a great craigslist find!!

Here are some pictures of our fun day!




October 15, 2011

Pumpkin Farm

We wanted to continue the tradition we have of going apple picking and/or pumpkin picking and also taking advantage of the rides/slides/etc that these types of place have. In Michigan the place we went to most of the rides and such were free, but not so down here! We paid $10/person, but there was a LOT to do and we had such a great time! Here are some pictures of our adventures. Despite the price, we hope to do this annually!



September 28, 2011

Isaac Update - 18 months!

I thought it's about time I do a brief update on Isaac. I didn't intend to continue monthly updates once he hit 1, but I also didn't intend to let it go so many months. So... here goes! :) He is 18 months now, so I'll try to update a bit on what's been happening.



He has 16 teeth these days. Most of his teething has gone smoothly, although when they actually break through the surface he usually wakes up early in the morning crying :(

When we left Michigan he was 13 months and was taking a step here and a step there. Once we'd settled in down here he started taking more and more steps. By 15 months he was walking exclusively and within the next month he started trotting and I'd say he is now running! He started late, but hasn't skipped a beat!

He's one tough little cookie. He likes to walk/run on the concrete and when I try to hold his hand he squawks and brushes my hand away. That has led to multiple bloodied knees, but he usually just hops up, brushes it off, and continues on his way! He is also a climber. One day he learned to climb up on the kitchen chairs. That night he learned he could then climb up on top of the kitchen table. The next afternoon he was standing on the table holding onto the chandelier! He has now learned to push chairs or other objects to other places (like the kitchen desk or countertops) so he can reach more things. I thought Kayla was a climber, and she was... but he is more so than her (which at the time I did not think was possible!!). With all of his climbing he sometimes takes big spills. He has bruises on his forehead and legs nearly all the time. But he is easily comforted and goes on his way!

At 16 months I took him in for his first haircut. I must admit that I really didn't want to do it. He had the most adorable curls and I didn't want to lose them. But, it was getting too long and raggedy. For at least 2 weeks after the haircut I would look at him and hardly recognize him. He turned from baby into little boy in that one small act. But it's grown on me. I love the little boy look now. And while most of the ringlets disappeared, he still gets small curls, which I am quite happy about.




Somewhere right around 16 months he transitioned from 2 naps to 1. His first nap started getting so late (like 11 or 11:30), and if it took him any amount of time to fall asleep he was going down as Kayla and I ate lunch at 12. And then his second nap was so late (like 4) that it would run into dinner time. Plus, I always put Kayla down for her nap during his 2nd nap... and I couldn't make it to 4pm anymore without a break (the pregnancy thing is exhausting!). So, we started keeping really busy in the mornings, we'll eat lunch at 12, and then I'll put him down shortly thereafter (usually around 1). I put Kayla down at the same time, and I take a nap myself! He typically naps about 2 hours, sometimes more and sometimes less. He continues to wake up right around 8am and goes to bed between 8-8:30, for a total amount of sleep of about 13.5-14 hours a day.

Eating is a struggle still. He refuses to even try so many foods, and then foods he once loved he suddenly won't touch anymore. I never struggled like this with Kayla. She might not have enjoyed everything we fed her, but she was always willing to take and try 1 bite. He won't even try it. He'll just hand it back to us, and if we don't take it, he'll throw it on the floor. Some days he'll eat grapes or blueberries or bananas or strawberries..... other days he refuses it all. Most days he'll eat crackers, and lately he'll eat them with peanut butter. He used to eat grilled cheese with some small pieces of lunch meat snuck inside, but lately he isn't eating that either. He refuses all meat and all veggies we offer, with the exception of an occasional chicken nugget. He eats yogurt, but will spit out the small fruit bits inside. So, we have to get creative, and it's not easy. I'm hoping that he'll change and we continue to offer all that we are eating, but it is such a struggle. Most meals include tears or screams from him as we try to get him to try new things, and that leads to frustration on our parts.

He is saying a bunch of words and is signing a few signs. The signs I've taught him are more, all done and thank-you. I have a book of baby signs somewhere (in storage), and when we find it I'll teach him a few more. But there is so much that can be communicated with more and all done (food, playing, bedtime, etc) that we are really getting somewhere. He nods his head yes and no and it's about the most adorable thing ever! And he points to what he wants, that helps also! He says mama, dada, something for Kayla (a-ya, or something else that's hard to put into written form), Pop-pop, Bribri (for uncle Brian), da (for down, also for dog), ba (for ball, bath), bye-bye, butterfly (I can't possibly try to write how he says it, but it's adorable), plea (for please), pppp (for up), va-va (for his lovey) and some others. He gets so frustrated sometimes with his lack of communication skills. You can tell he wants to get across his feelings and thoughts but doesn't know how. I know this is a frustrating stage for him; he understands so much and has such a desire to communicate. And he sees things Kayla does and gets frustrated that he isn't skilled enough to do all the things he'd like to. The combination of those two things leads to a lot of squawking. I'm looking forward to improved communication in the next few months!

He loves, loves, loves the water. He gets so excited to take a bath, he loves playing in the backyard at the water table, he loves the pool and the waves at the beach. He loves splashing. He doesn't care when he slips underwater (which scares me to death). He has no fear of walking into the waves at the beach, or stepping right into the pool (which also scares me to death). He's pretty fearless!



I have weaned him completely. I nursed Kayla until about 20 months, and never even expected to go that long with her, it just worked out that way. I didn't think I would nurse Isaac for that long either, but we weren't ready to give it up at a year either. But, once I was pregnant it made nursing more and more difficult. But, at the same time, I wasn't willing to give up on it/him just because of the new baby. Shortly after we moved down to NC (so when he was about 14 months) we went from 4 a day to 2 a day (I gave up the middle of the day feedings, weaning one for a week then the other). I gave up the bedtime nursing at 15 months, and then finally the morning one at 16 months. With my nausea it was just getting too hard. Plus, my belly started getting bigger and bigger and it was getting more and more uncomfortable for me. Plus, at 16 months I was 18 weeks pregnant and wasn't able to wear my normal tee-shirts easily anymore. And most maternity shirts have a waist tie, making it really hard to nurse! So, a few days in a row I was up and showered and dressed before he woke up, and I just didn't nurse him, and he was fine with it, so we stopped! Originally I had hoped to continue it until we'd moved into our new house, since nursing is a comfort thing and I wanted him to feel ok with all the change going on in his life. But, I am really completely content with how it all went, and he is happy with how it went, and that's the best you can hope for in the weaning process! I have noticed that my appetite has gone done since that point, which makes sense, but is still interesting to me!

Isaac LOVES to brush his teeth. Whenever we walk into the bathroom he squeals with delight and is so excited to get his toothbrush. As a result, we often brush his teeth several times a day!!

As for playing, he is really curious about how things are made. He likes to study toys and work to figure them out. He likes to open and close boxes. He likes to put things in and then take them out (ad infinitum). He really enjoys things with wheels on them! He can sit still and play with the same toy for a long time, which is not something I remember Kayla did until she was much older. She went from toy to toy, area to area! He loves books, and loves to turn the pages and play with the binding. He is just in the last month or so allowing us to actually read more than 1 page of a book without having him shut it on us to study the construction of it! He loves to point out things (dogs, flowers, butterflies, balls, etc). He has his favorite 3 or 4 books and will carry them proudly around the house and read them by myself or plop himself down in my lap for me to ready them. He has his favorite books, but we are now able to branch out to some more and he'll actually let us read the story! I love this stage!

Recently he's learned to climb into and out of his feeding chair. He is so proud of himself (since we all, Kayla too!, are praising him for it).

He loves to play outside and his favorite toy is the lawnmower. He loves to watch David mow the lawn and likes to follow him for awhile. Then he wants David to pick him up and carry him while he mows! And he gets so very sad if David doesn't pick him up, or when he eventually sets him down.

This kid loves to wear shoes. If he's in a crabby or sad mood, if you offer to put his shoes on her gets very excited! (he also can say "shooooz" which is hilarious!)

That's about all I can think of! I love this little boy so very much. He is a snuggler who loves to sit on my lap or come give random hugs (although at the same time, sometimes he likes to come sit next to me, but won't allow me to put my arm around him or snuggle up with him, he just likes to be close!). Recently he learned to blow raspberries on me and he will do them over and over again until we are both laughing too much to continue! Mostly I get covered in slobber, but it's so hilarious! He is a sweet, sweet little boy.



September 27, 2011

Boone

We got a chance to visit Boone, NC this fall and see Appilatian State, where Brian goes to college. Every year his family goes up there for a weekend, and each year we say how much fun it would be if we could join them. It was kinda fun to be able to actually join them this year!

On Saturday we tailgated for lunch and was really both David and my first opporunity to do tailgate, since Calvin didn't have a football team. Then we went to the game. The kids enjoyed the atmosphere for a little bit, but by 5 minutes into the game they were ready for something else! Everyone took turns entertaining them and we made it until half time, at which point we decided to head home!

The next day Brian took us on a tour of his campus, which was beautiful. The weather for the weekend was perfect, despite a little rain, and we really enjoyed our visit!

Here are a few pictures from the weekend.




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