A Father's First Thoughts
I can't believe that it's already been 5 weeks! I realize that this is a bit overdue, but here goes.
Kayla,
I don't even think that I'll be able to put into words everything that I felt in the first few days of your life. I remember Monday morning when your mom came in at 6am and woke me up saying "I think we're going to have a baby today." Unfortunately for your mother, you decided to wait until Tuesday morning to come into this world. It's different for me, I wasn't able to feel you growing inside of me, I didn't feel your every move and kick. I didn't get to experience those things, yet I was bonded with you before your birth and that bond grew to untold limits the moment you were born. I remember seeing your face for the first time, you were very precious. Right after your birth, the nurse placed you on your mom's chest and the joy she had in her face was indescribable. I can remember thinking "Holy cow, I'm a dad now!". You were a little stinker and wouldn't cry for the nurses as they cleaned out your lungs, your mother was very concerned for you as was I. I held onto your little foot as they worked on you, so that you'd know that someone that loved you very much was close. While I was holding onto you, I was also holding onto your mother's leg as well. I wanted both of my babe's to know that their Daddy/Husband was close and there if either of them needed him. It's hard to describe what it's like to love someone so much without even really knowing them. You were born and it was unbelievable love at first sight. There's not a thing I wouldn't do for you. You and I spent more time together in your first few hours of life than anyone else spent with you. I cut the cord that had connected you with mom for 9+ months, I held your little hand while they pricked your foot, and I helped with your first bath. Those are memories that I will never forget. You were and still are so precious. I Love you Kayla, love Dad.
